today's drink: not being good enough.
it's bad enough to have your parents, your siblings, guys, and your school tell you that you are not good enough, but it really is worse when they continue telling you this even after you finally are good enough in your own eyes.
Sunday, November 21, 2010
Saturday, November 20, 2010
cup o stress
today's drink: stress
we all have stress. and even when we think we have finally cleared away most or all of our stress, new stress seems to appear out of the mist and weigh on our shoulders. just like the song says, i was feeling too damn good, so something (or everything) had to go wrong. it's amazing to think about how that always seems to happen. last week thursday, i was feeling fantastic. i thought all of my hardwork this semester had paid off and i could return to eau claire in the spring, money was good, and i was just feeling confident and great. then, everything went downhill. now, i don't know if i can take classes in the spring, i'm broke, my parents are all upset at me for no good reasons, i have to pay to repair my side-view mirror, and i am just stressed to the point of exhaustion. actually, this stress is the exact same stress i had in the beginning of the summer when i found out i was on academic suspension and my parents found out about my arrest. i was totally stress-free all semester up until this point, and now it's really bad. i suppose it's all about winning little battles to ease the stress, though. for instance, having a good shift at work or getting my room clean makes me feel like i've accomplished something good. also, caffeine seems to help the stress a little bit. if you're feeling awake you aren't as susceptible to dwelling in self-pity. plus, if you're caffeinated, you can get more stuff done, which might take your mind off your problems for awhile.
we all have stress. and even when we think we have finally cleared away most or all of our stress, new stress seems to appear out of the mist and weigh on our shoulders. just like the song says, i was feeling too damn good, so something (or everything) had to go wrong. it's amazing to think about how that always seems to happen. last week thursday, i was feeling fantastic. i thought all of my hardwork this semester had paid off and i could return to eau claire in the spring, money was good, and i was just feeling confident and great. then, everything went downhill. now, i don't know if i can take classes in the spring, i'm broke, my parents are all upset at me for no good reasons, i have to pay to repair my side-view mirror, and i am just stressed to the point of exhaustion. actually, this stress is the exact same stress i had in the beginning of the summer when i found out i was on academic suspension and my parents found out about my arrest. i was totally stress-free all semester up until this point, and now it's really bad. i suppose it's all about winning little battles to ease the stress, though. for instance, having a good shift at work or getting my room clean makes me feel like i've accomplished something good. also, caffeine seems to help the stress a little bit. if you're feeling awake you aren't as susceptible to dwelling in self-pity. plus, if you're caffeinated, you can get more stuff done, which might take your mind off your problems for awhile.
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